V.complain

FOR ONLY YOU:

if you are the minority, you should give in to the majority,
if you have been done a favour by someone,
you should at least think of that person and what's easier for them,
instead of being just stupid and unreasonable,
if you are targeted, there usually is a reason why,
even if you are different, still have consideration for others,
e.o.r.

polygamy aye? would people really be happier?
if you can't keep your attention on just one person, does that mean you condone this practice?
even if we've been brought up to find that prince charming or cinderella, will there always be "the one" for us?
i mean, it's highly unlikely for you not notice someone else while you're in a relationship. someone who will make you doubt your decision as to whether you've made the right choice? what if that someone else is the one? are you just wasting time with the person you're currently in a relationship with now?
if you're noticing someone else, does that mean you're getting bored? or, is it just a small random phase that will pass?
if polygamy wasn't frowned upon, would you really never be bored? would you really be happy since you would always have someone there waiting for you? or if you were to be polygamous lifestyle, would you get tired and want a monogamous relationship instead.
to share your attention, i don't think it is that hard but to share your attention equally is the challenge.
you'll definitely tend to be swayed to one person over the other until you get bored then of course, you 'll switch or find another.
=[ why am i thinking about this stuff =[  someone save me =[

on side note. russell brand is quite the comedian =]

what you realise from 'get to the greek' is that having just that one person there for you is all you need.
you don't need two or three, you don't need to have an open relationship.
because at the end of the day that's the only person you want to just lie in bed next to and snuggle with =]

last part to be written once the argument is over

benevolence

the way i treat you is out of benevolence,

don't question me and my motives,

just accept this kindness and be thankful

~~~~~xo~~~~~

being nice sometimes is so hard..
there are just some people who don't deserve to be understood.
wow. bitch.

ave

why do you have to be this way?

the things you do,

the choices you make,

the way it affects me

makes life so damn ave.

i blame you.

~~~~~xo~~~~~

catching up on missed posts is the most ave thing to do at 1am
gg

V.Words

start : doing
stop : thinking
love : you =]
hate : boredom
missing : that feeling
gaining : kilograms
trying : to find out what i want
failing : to do so
giving up : on it
leaving: you soon

static

a word that completely defines where i am at this present time.

not moving forward nor backward, just stationary and still.

~~~~~xo~~~~~

bzzzz
shock me
with ur static elect ;]

V.chemistry

chemistry.
is that what we have?
chemistry.
how do we know if we have it?
chemistry.
what you want but you can't have
chemistry.
someone define it for me
chemistry.

but the planets all aligned

when you looked into my eyes

and just like that

watch the chemicals react

the chemicals react

bliss

being in a state of mind where nothing can affect you,
being satisfied with where you are and who are you are,
not being affected by the choices that person makes,
being blissful is quite relaxing and therapeutic don't you think? :)

~~~~~xo~~~~~

to being in a state of bliss
means you have to be truly happy.
ah, i wish i could feel that once again..

V.black and white

last night was the white party!
music was soooo good! BUT i missed out on my song :( but it's ok helen :) it was worth the little chat we had :) overall, a pretty good night i must admit disregarding the few drunken girlies but at least they danced :) so many people were out!
roadtrip sounds quite interesting =x

WHITE

• ME - PURITY! i am not a slut. i am not a whore. these titles have been gladly given and taken by other people:)
• KA-SENG - haven't seen this boy in AGES :) was sooo good to see him at ktv and metros hehe :)
• JUN - hope you had a good birthday =D 
• JOHN - thanks for the rides home :)
• TIM - usual fun as always ;) yay for good music and yay for being hangover free!
• ANNIE - FIRST TIME OUT IN AGES <3 i've missed you!
• BEC - what can i say, fun as always =)
• JOSH - SORRY! XOXO we are soooooooooooo unimaginably awesome! alan kan has been infected =x ! so pure josh =$ didn't do anything stupid at all :) except maybe get angry at some girl =S but you shldn't judge bitches >=( whee can't imagine metros nights without you =$

BLACK

• SAGO - INFECTED BY THE MOST IMPURE OF THEM ALL good luck to gaining that purity back sago! NOT COOL >=(
• ALAN - popped his metros cherry and became a WHORE       (kudos to josh & i =] )
• JACKIE - drunk ass girl - couldn't even barely make it into metros + was in the toilet yakking her brains out for AGES
• HELEN - kicked out minutes entering metros  =.= bouncers are so mean =( telling her to fk off twice =( but it's a-okay we went walkies =) AND lost almost everything in her purse =.=" so fail! luckily she has her phone and ID =$
• JEN - as usual the drunkard, but apparently drinking 151 instead of tequila what a NOOB! but without a drunk Jen it wouldn't be a normal night out =)

now...to go out next weekend or not =S

TO GO:

• asia camp 
• roadtrip

getting sick fml :( clubbing in winter is so bad :( because it's so cold!
jackie xu is leaving perth soon :(
nj has left perth :(
who else is leaving soon :(

V.fade

it's beginning to fade, and i don't know why
is it because my head is finally convincing my heart?
is it because i can just lose interest that easily?
is it because of the situation?
is this what i want? do i want you? do i want this to end?
am i actually in this for real? or, am i just in this for fun?
am i supposed to let this go and move on?
or, am i supposed to find a way to respark us in my mind?
the question is, am i to be selfless or selfish?
"i don't know what i want" but i do know right from wrong.
to choose a path for my happiness? or,
to choose a path for a clear conscience? or, both?
when the time comes to finally make a decision,
i hope in the end i make the right choice for me
because i don't want to look back and regret
what could have been or what should have been.

crush

the words i expected to come from your mouth
are not the words i wanted to hear
you always seem to crush what little faith i have
unless we come to a compromise,
there won't be anything left to have faith in.

has it ever crossed your mind?
are we just friends? is there more?
why do i keep running from the truth?
all i ever think about is you.
all that we can be, where this thing can go?
cause i've tried and tried to walk away
is it really just another crush?
you tell me.

~~~~~xo~~~~~

you crush my hopes and expectations of you,
time and time again.

why do I associate myself with you?
I can't even answer that myself anymore.