similar

everyone is different for a reason,
when you start mimicking someone else,
and becoming that someone else,
what's the point in being around anymore?
we only need one of you.
one is more than enough.

~~~~~xo~~~~~

you and him.
so much difference.
yet similarly,
you both disappoint me in the same way.
gtfo.
just like he did.

V.drift

i don't know how i feel about you at the moment. you've changed. you've become exactly like someone else. you  don't have anything about you that's different. really...you've really lost... you. it's hard to watch you change this much without even realising it yourself. i don't think you realise what you could be missing out on or are starting to lose at the moment. do you know why? because you don't take into consideration the effort others make for you. if you don't reciprocate sooner or later, they aren't going to be bothered anymore. and in the end, you wonder who really is going to be there for you at the end of the day and whether that person or people are the right influence. you're drifting...


spring is drawing near ! :)
poor you if you suffer from hayfever !
september blogs begin soon

Q.笑

so i put on my make up,
put a Smile on my face.
and if anyone asks me,
everything is ok.
i'm laughing coz no one knows the joke is on me.
but i'm dying inside with my pride
and a smile on my face,
singing la la la...

title

your title to the world, is it that important?

once you change that title, everything else changes with it.

and those changes won't necessarily be for the best

if you're happy with where you are and where you're heading,

i don't see a point in changing that status/title,

because in the end, is that change really for you?

or for you to justify to everyone else what you have.

~~~~~xo~~~~~

once we walk out that door,
i no longer hold that title,
i no longer have that status,
you no longer have to please me,
but will you keep doing so?

twin

last weekend > this weekend

my twin didn't even rock up :(
jackie got kicked out =o

annie got kicked out =o

jen didn't reach her easy mode -.-

alan came to metros :)

i think i need a break from metros. it's gotten boring again :(

that two week break will make me enjoy the next time i go way more :)

to wait out till asia cocktail ? we'll see :)

but fail weekend as predicted =\

msu ball

to go or not to go?

o.helpless

it's funny how helpless some boys can feel when dealing with a girl.

they don't understand why we act certain ways. why we're suddenly moody. 

they don't know whether to assume it's that time of the month, or there something is really wrong.

they don't want to do or say anything wrong in fear of us raging. 

one minute we'll be all smiley, the next ... =X

crazy much ! poor stupid cans:O

it's scary to think how much has changed between us. it's scary to think how different it is. and even though all it needs is making the effort to communicate and make time. it's harder than you think. there is too much in the past to think about and dwell on. there is too much we know of each other to really move on properly. there is too much baggage for there to be any real trust and reliance. if we're not going to be straight with one another i don't see the point in making that effort. it's not that i don't want to make the effort, it's more like i don't want to make an effort that is just going to go to waste in the end. what's the point in going through all that when i know it'll just go back to the way it was. eos. you've changed. i've changed. but as to what kind of change, we can only judge ourselves.

hearsay

hearsay is a rather annoying thing to deal with

everyone has their own interpretation 

and the information you get could be far from the truth

~~~~~xo~~~~~

when i hear things from other people,
whether truth or not,
i can shake it off,
not pay any attention to it,
pretend like it was nothing.
but when i hear you say so from your mouth,
it cuts right through my heart,
into the depths of my soul.

closure

is what is needed,
is what we have,
is still to come,
there are too many loose ends left untied
all you need is this to move on with your life

~~~~~xo~~~~~

move out of my memories,
move out of my mind.
remove your things,
remove your belongings,
so i can close the door of my heart on you,
and never open it back up again.

neverending

the cycle will never end.the effort you make is taken for granted, hurting you is the choice i make, the choices i make it's not for only me but also for the choices that you have made, the chemistry is irreplaceable that i won't deny, your desires still present and your hope never fading. 

i'm really truly sorry what you have to go through. i know it must be hard for you, but what you have is worth it. i'm glad you're happy and i hope you don't let your doubts cloud your vision. don't doubt your importance to him. don't think about how high up you are on that list. just cherish what you have together :)