Q.二

Day 2 - Your Crush

you were my first crush.

perhaps it was the fact that we both played piano,
and our teacher liked us as a little couple..
or perhaps that we were the "asian couple" of the class,
that our parents knew each other,
and we went over to each other's houses to play more often than the other kids did.

whatever it was,
we were always together,
and you attracted me.

and even until now,
i think back to that attraction,
and reminisce.
it was a nice feeling.

everything is always more simple when you're young.

but all good things, always come to an end.
that's why they call it a crush.
because in the end, you'll only be crushed by it.
crushed by the feelings,
crushed by the emotions.

i was young.
i didn't understand.
but if you were to come back to my life now,
i doubt i would have avoided crushing on you again,

SN

purity :)

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Q.一

Day 1 - Your Bestfriend

the first time i met you, you asked me to touch your abs. haha.
hilarious moment. i still remember our very awkward meeting;
"CHRI--------.... ur not Chris.... =S"

the friendship bond between us became stronger, because of him.
everytime we had an argument, i called you.
everytime i was upset, you were there.
everytime i needed someone, i knew you were the one.

you are like, the most important person in my life.
my support pillar, my source of strength, my hope.

but it all came crashing down,
that night when you said those words to me.

it hurt.

i felt like i was really left with nothing.
it was worse than him leaving my life.
it was the most horrible feeling.
a world without you.
that is one world i do not wish to live in again.

i'm really glad we cleared things up.
i'm really glad you started to open up to me more.
i'm really glad we can be "us" again.

the first time i saw you cry,
my heart tore itself apart.
it hurt me so much.
i felt so helpless.
i didn't know what to do, what to say.
i didn't know how to make you feel better.
all i wanted to do was to hold you in my arms until you were ok.

all these million feelings i have for you,
all these million things i'd do for you,
all these million things i have to say to you,
so much so that even at times, i'd confuse myself as to whether you were only a bestfriend, or something more.

but that is a question i wish to have unanswered.
you know that i cherish you in an unexplained way,
and i know that i stand somewhere in your heart important enough.
and that's enough for me. =)

i love you.

in my world,
you are perfection.
and no matter how much effort it may take,
you will be my bestfriend,
forever and ever.

EKCT

SPRING

YAY
YOU
ARE
HERE
:)

v.day one

they can change every so often, if you're lucky you will have only the one throughout your life.
things change as time goes on, people change, their values, their goals, so it's only natural that your relationships with certain people will change.

as to who you are, it's hard to say. i can't exactly have one of you, because all of you mean a lot to me.
a hard question to answer, with so many of you in my life.

V.wtf?

everything is so stupid. we still live in a high school drama. and i doubt it'll ever end.

similar

everyone is different for a reason,
when you start mimicking someone else,
and becoming that someone else,
what's the point in being around anymore?
we only need one of you.
one is more than enough.

~~~~~xo~~~~~

you and him.
so much difference.
yet similarly,
you both disappoint me in the same way.
gtfo.
just like he did.

V.drift

i don't know how i feel about you at the moment. you've changed. you've become exactly like someone else. you  don't have anything about you that's different. really...you've really lost... you. it's hard to watch you change this much without even realising it yourself. i don't think you realise what you could be missing out on or are starting to lose at the moment. do you know why? because you don't take into consideration the effort others make for you. if you don't reciprocate sooner or later, they aren't going to be bothered anymore. and in the end, you wonder who really is going to be there for you at the end of the day and whether that person or people are the right influence. you're drifting...


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Q.笑

so i put on my make up,
put a Smile on my face.
and if anyone asks me,
everything is ok.
i'm laughing coz no one knows the joke is on me.
but i'm dying inside with my pride
and a smile on my face,
singing la la la...

title

your title to the world, is it that important?

once you change that title, everything else changes with it.

and those changes won't necessarily be for the best

if you're happy with where you are and where you're heading,

i don't see a point in changing that status/title,

because in the end, is that change really for you?

or for you to justify to everyone else what you have.

~~~~~xo~~~~~

once we walk out that door,
i no longer hold that title,
i no longer have that status,
you no longer have to please me,
but will you keep doing so?