v.worse

i'm getting worse.

grenade

easy come easy go
that's just how you live,
take, take, take it all
but you never give.

to give me all of your love is all i ever asked.
cause what you don't understand is..
i'd catch a grenade for you,
throw my hand on a blade for you,
i'd jump in front of a train for you.
you know i'd do anything for you,
i would go through all this pain,
take a bullet straight through my brain,
yes.
i would die for you.
but you won't do the same

bruno mars =]

v.yay you?

yay you, you've tamed him
yay you, you have control
yay you, you've finally sorted out your priorities
yay you, you don't have drama
yay you, you're over it?
yay you, are you starting to open your heart?
yay you, you have oneitis.

yay me, vampire diaries is out soon :$

FUCK YOU NEW MSN >=( I HATE YOU!

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exams are coming up :( 

no idea where to start studying!

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Spot the difference.

v.window

nothing you can do but watch
it hurts that you can only be so helpless
only being able to stare from the outside,
you have no control but to just think of what-ifs

i'm left speechless, clueless, confused as to what i'm doing is wrong. what am i supposed to do? 

how do you think it makes me feel? regardless, i still care.

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i don't like how you are trying to control me
my lips are really dry :( i think its cos i've been overdosing with the soy sauce when i eat my sushi and stuff :(
well last night was a saturday, helen came over and we were going to have moscato and cheese and crackers with bring it on movies!
but what happened? these silly two teens got influenced into going to nonetheless but metro city! george came out! he was soooooo drunk! haha heard he yacked =\ hopefully he's okay!
we wanted to go home early :( but we stayed
jackie's car broke down and bran hit jackie's car with sago's?
orange was so drunk he even died in gross dirty metro city toilets to sleep =.=
and of course, the highlight of the night...no comment.
today was unproductive

mother's back tomorrow. brother's back tomorrow =)
going to bring mother to POPPOS! must remember to bring msu card

omg rugby is such a rough sport! derek is never playing it >=(
will go smash the boys that break him >=(
mmm..thats all from me for now

spoon-fed

it's hard to know what to do if you've only ever been spoon fed for that certain experience,
you're left clueless about what to do and how to start,
and because it becomes hard, you are confused and dumbstruck as how to fix the problem that occurs
and then...the only word that seems to pop up in your head regularly once you hit something is...
end.

v.different

we're different because we are meant to be,
the way we act and respond isn't on purpose
it is only natural for us
we're cool like that :)
and no one can take that away from us
we may seem to have the world,
but for some things you've probably had it better than us,
because we are us, we've probably missed out on a lot,
however we have gained in other aspects
hard yet easy, you wonder what lies ahead....


it's crazy how instantly you can change your mind
once someone else from the outside tells you their opinion
it's great isn't it? to have people from different groups as your friends :)
it opens your eyes, your mind and heart
and clears the fog when your vision gets blurred

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i'm getting sick :(
i'm going to eat poppos tomorrow with my sisters :)

v.karaoke

just got home from karaoke!
what a long day :(
i woke up early and made breakfast for bridget :) well recess =x

karaoke compared to last year was a hit!
however, there were too many contestants in the first round!
the winner of the competition was Gabriel Chan!
Jackie liked him muchly!
jess kissed me =x
jackie kissed jess's boob
sago lay

19 => top 5 + 2 => top 3

i was running around like a maniac :( and i told so many people off :(
such a bitch :( some people are going to think i'm some crazy control freak and run off :(
people are going to stab me cos some of them were viet :(

2140 is due tmr.
thank god for ernst <3

i got my presents today :)
a jar of hearts from sago
and shoes from meng
does meng know what asians say when it comes to shoes as presents :O
i'm sure jackie will enlighten him bahahaha

i'm so tired!
i think my sisters ate my roast vegetables which i specifically ta pau-ed from the biz school cafe to bring home and eat later :(
it's cold :( it's spose to be really nice weather :(
i'm sick :( *sigh

time to finish off 2140 and go sleep!
xo

start!

from tomorrow,

no junk food
chocolates
sweets
fast food - i.e. maccas, hjs, kfc

if i get hungry, going to drink water!

try and have 3 proper meals :)
roast vegetable foccacia ftw !!
edens :)

fresh and healthy :):)

change is great :)
when you know it's for the best :)

v.cut down

on eating so much :(
i'm going to grow sideways :(

on being so slack
exams are just around the corner and barely know anything!
gotta start focusing and figuring out a study plan

on sleeping so much
my body clock is so stupid
i sleep soooo much that i'm so tired all the time and can sleep anytime
even if i sleep early, like 9/10/11pm i still snooze for like 2 hours :(
bad bad bad

on being so unhealthy
i gotta start exercising! and drinking more water and less alcohol, my skin is dying =[

so much to change :(
easier said than done, one step at a time i guess...

swing

you want to be the best, to reach the furthest, 

making sure to hold on tight never wanting to let go,

looking side to side at your competition

because once something comes along and distracts you

you start to buckle 

your focus, your strength starts to subside,

and you end up falling smack bam on the floor

what's left. nothing but pain.

you kind of wonder what hit you,

what made you lose focus,

what was so influential to affect you

maybe it was fear 

maybe it was intrigue

who will be there running to your rescue