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Q.傻笑

望着天, 傻傻地笑
对着人, 傻傻地笑
走着路, 傻傻地笑
开着车, 傻傻地笑
聊着天, 傻傻地笑
因为我在想着你, 傻傻地笑..
<3

v.over

totally over it. you can forget about it.
it's all fake anyways so why should i even bother?
you've already lost one friend another shouldn't hurt right?
if you think you've made the effort you're more fucked in the head than we think.
she hurts you know and you don't even know or realise.
you have your names with people which you don't even cherish thinking that it'll be okay if you ignore them.
i could add more bitchy things but hey, since it's your birthday i'll give it a pass.

v.chemistry

it's pretty cool how attraction and chemistry works...pretty interesting stuff
unfortunately it can backfire and be your worse nightmare where because of the way things are there is no way in hell anything is going to happen...but for you :) nothing is there to blemish your perfect chance! cannot wait to see the results :):) the timing couldn't be more perfect :) it's up to you with what you want to do i guess you aren't going to deny it aye :) horny =x

so 2010 event calendar finally ended! now theres nothing really left to do...things have been planned but i guess it is just time for some research or maybe a break is really in order. jackie says i'm so sad =[ cos now i really don't even have a life!

thank you so much joshy for picking me up and sending me home! love you! xx

so like right now...you really are starting to piss me off. my patience has a very low tolerance at the moment so i wouldn't try anything.

what do you want for your birthday?

v.boredom

i'm really bored at the moment. slept around 3...woke up around 8 and i think i'm still effected by the red bull! :( so now i have nothing to do cos there are no shows to watch !
i really did have SO much fun at dynasty! owned any other metro night =$ topped any good night i've had so far :)

so proud of the girls and boys who did the dance :) who knew jasmine was soo creative :) haha dj moto was reallly good! annie was so drunk :O ABC totally trying to hook in ;) oh that girl is such a tease =x now that she's single no boy is safe =$ lol at jackie passing out on sago's bed...white boys with ginger hair are not worth anyone's tears >=(

i think i'm going to go watch pokemon...no one is awake everyone's sleeping...but hey people should be awake if meng is able to wake up for work!

now whether to go out tonight or not to =\

i felt so epically fat yesterday :(
it makes me so :(

v.dynasty

Dynasty was sooo good! Although the dance had a false start everything else was sooo fun! Vanessa drank and drove for the first time! Annie lost her voice! Jackie got upset! Jess saw sooo many exs! poor girl :(

I would say it was a success! for those that didn't come you epically missed out! TWO THOUSAND AND ELEVEN WILL BE SUCH AN EXCITING YEAR :)
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v.short

so my dresses are really short.

it's like no shit sherlock

:(

and like my skirts... =[ 

I AM SO EPIC YAY FOR YOU :)

BE HAPPY CHAPPY MY DEAR =]

we need an idea!

infrared cameras are so . . . i think i got caught the other on my way to curtin :(

my phone is fucked.

it doesn't ring and there's no missed call icon but the messages get sent :(

and now all it says is call fail :(

v.Just because

It's funny how even she can bring up some valid points that makes you question things...

Friends are supposed to be supportive, there for you when you're sad, there for you when you wanna have fun, if you don't want to go through things alone friends just tag along for support, if you need a plus one as a wingman friends just hop in when necessary! Friends do things even if they don't really want to just because you're their friend. if you're doing something big and exciting shouldn't they try and support you in all ways that they can? I mean its not like I'm going to go and push you and beg you and its not that I'm desperate either. Its just a thought that "just because" it'd be a friend thing to do.
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v.move

my sisters seem to be moving into my room -.-
they seem to be sleeping over more and more these few days =[
my dads like why don't you all move in the same room together!

freaking ... is pissing me off =@ so freaking stupid. mixing her words, complaining about the change, trying to hold on to what has already been passed on =@
you've already had your turn and right now you aren't really doing anything for the benefit of the club. you are freaking trying to do it for yourself, your career and reputation. go and die in a hole stupid pos.

i need more shows to watch :( vampire diaries doesn't continue till dec and even then it's only got two episodes left :( hrmm i need something to keep me occupied =\ CS stuff only goes so far =\

v.boredom

so last night went back to metros since jackie wanted to go out for a bit. was about to bail when she called me and told me she was outside =[
ms helen le didn't even make an appearance ! but she didn't miss out on much anyways lucky her i would have rather stayed home! music was ave until the end end. like a g6 is a really good song but it's wayy too slow to be a really good clubbing song =\  sooo many people is ave...especially in summer...
i think the highlight of my night was laughing at jason each time sam tran tried to get with him. man he so fail! didn't even like say good bye to her properly he just ran far far away!
ah my dear sam tran really is quite the loose miss =\ the rumours are true =x
man there were so many actual sluts last night o.O was so like :O i mean people call me a slut/skank but pfft i'm nothing compared to them! PURITY O=) i wonder if i should name them...maybe i won't..cos last night i was being even more bitchy than usual =x haha oh wells...meh..it was boring last night so that killed time. short little girls should not push big girls like moi and stand on some people's feet i.e. jackie's otherwise they are in for it big time =@ dotdotdot
orange didn't hook in D: i was so bored i kept trying to push people together but that failed!
there were these gay boys that were near us at the end and sago turned straight for a bit so he wldnt go near him hahahaha and one of them was interested in jong xin apparently ;)
andy was there last night =) =) he seems too upper class to be on the dancefloor in metro city =\ he belongs in places like minQ bar =x lol and apparently tim got oneitis last night =$ wonder who the lucky girl was ;)

end of saturday night and sunday morning

LET'S GO YUM CHA TMR =D !!!!!

v.brave

after all that has happened you blame no one, you just sit through the pain with a smile on your face :)  i don't know how you are so brave and grown up at your age...it's pretty damn amazing !
you make me smile because you're so strong whilst making me sad watching you endure what has happened to you. for your sake and theirs, i really hope that there are no scars to burden you, i don't know how she would be able to handle seeing your face everyday with a scar reminding her everyday of what happened as well as them.
my dear little bubble be as happy as you can be and live your precious life to the fullest :) holding your small little hand everyday makes my day just that much better =]

i love you!



and as for you, i'm glad you came out fine with no complications and hopefully are sleeping well :) let's hope nothing else comes back to surprise us :)

v.decisions

some rules are broken "just for fun"...like hrmm sneaking out of your house to go metros on saturday nights.
but some rules are just not meant to be trifled with at all. some things are just meant to be respected and left alone and if you actually break the rule that isn't meant to be broken, you lose a whole lot of respect and gain a whole lot of disgust and disappointment in you and your decision. but i guess as most say things happen for a reason.

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so lately i've become a tv-addict. i guess my boredom has really surfaced and i just watch charmed and pokemon all day which i guess i don't mind. pokemon is really fun to watch :) pikachu is SOOOO CUTE! totally want one! oh and vulpix :) magikarp is the worst piece of crap ever freaking fish. ugh so fucking annoying to watch it  =@ magi karp karp karp karp...
charmed is getting boring-ish...it was only good when cole was around :) bad boys are sooo hot =$
leo is a fatty now and darryl is a fatty too. no goodalooking guys :( nick lachey is right now phoebes love interest =) =) AND WYATT AND CHRIS ARE WAYY TOO CUTE! *sigh  makes me smile :):)

well anyways time for sleepies. early early morning wake up tmr :) hope things go well for both of you =) i hope you heal with no scars to haunt you in the future and i hope it isn't a serious case and you'll be up and running in no time with no future hassles

don't take shit from nobody

leilockheart =]

Q.真的

真的

我努力的仰着脸孔
试着让眼泪不往下流 别往下流
不安的感觉到什么
在我生活中不再相同 很不相同

想要说 却还沉默
伸出手 无法触碰

天空突然一片辽阔
原来你是真的已经离开我
在我不熟悉的世界过新的生活

闭上眼 让泪水滑落
此刻你已真的永远离开我
在另外一个没有我的世界 自由的走

v.last

so tmr will be my last exam which i will totally flunk. i don't even think super duper stoopid alan kan will be able to help me :( mechanical dynamics you make me so so so sad :(
zac and jeremiah wna drink tmrs =\ since we don't like beer zac and i are going to drink water and zac feels a tad naughty so he wants some lemon too :) sparkling water is soo gross ! bottled - still water ftw !!
zac says he assumed i liked sparkling cos i'm all posh and what not drinking tea with my pinky up in the air
and thuy today was like i thought you had a boyfriend! i was like no i'm single =) and she's like you look like those people with boyfriends -.- *sigh
and she said i looked gangster :( :( :( :(

after tmr...exams will be the least of my problems....there's so much to do and deal with =\ i gotta deal with dynasty stuff and 2011 stuff and family stuff and friend stuff sighs.
ooo on a happy note dear thuy has helped me finish off selling my tickets =] she's way too pro. my $15 batch one is officially sold out and my other $20 ones yay! thank you thuy <3
thank you stupid alan kan for helping me in cfp and mech =) epic love! cannot wait till next year =$ i'm considering deferring my finance units for you =$
end of second year is tomorrow kinda scary thinking about being a third year =o tricia's going to be a fresher as well =\ wonder what will happen...mother says she'll end up not seeing both us at all next year haah guess we'll see =) april two thousand and eleven marks the cutting down of metros hopefully =]
i shall try and not procrastinate any longer...mechanical dynamics you are going to make me cry tomorrow!

reality strikes.

leilockheart

v.stoopid

things can only get better. you've gotten past this  point before and i'm sure you can pass it once again. for now, all you can do is cry it all out and get it out of your system where you have no more tears to shed and you become tired of wasting your sadness tears and everything on him. the rest of us can only be a shoulder for you to cry on. no matter what we say it won't make the hurt go away, no matter what we do that person will still be on the back of your mind. so all that is needed is either a rebound =x for distraction or to live with it till time heals the wound. you've had a slip up and even though you thought you could handle it you couldn't. saying i told you so isn't really going to change anything so hopefully this is just another mistake you learn from. i know his attention and presence makes you happy but that happiness won't last and i think you know that now. you have said you're stupid which i do believe you are at times but when it comes to your heart and your love nothing can stop you.

just breathe. it'll hurt. but you can only get stronger from this.

v.fefe dobson

so i found a new song that i really love

stuttering - fefe dobson


it was the music act for the latest episode of hellcats.
i don't know why i love the song so much =\ i mean the lyrics don't really apply to me but i guess i like the melody and instrumental =] but yeah i love it muchly :) jackie and jess love it muchly too
jackie's favourite line "there's a whole lot of things that i will forgive but i just can't take a liar"

it's you and me against the world

that's what you said

if you can't be honest with me 

i'm afraid this is the end

hurry up hurry up

if you ever really cared about me

tell the truth, give it up

you sound guilt cos you're stuttering

;)

just maybe

shallow-ness

v.prepare

so today i went to church for the first time in ages...kind of '...' how they were coincidentally talking about death...
pretty much the Priest was talking about how prepared we would be when death comes our way...
even if you always prepare for every exam, every work meeting, every single thing in your day, how prepared will you be when it's your final few minutes? things happen unexpectedly and for most situations you should just really be thankful that for you it wasn't so severe as it could be.
so how do we prepare ourselves for death?  for those with money and assets are you supposed to keep your will in check every week? for those with close family and friends are you supposed to ring them up every day to tell them 'I love you'?

i hope death goes away at this point. far far away...
i doubt it will be that serious and you'll come out fine. i guess this is just really going to be an eye-opener to the life you live at the moment. right now you're running back to your faith for support i guess it's just a peace of mind kind of thing something to give you hope to look out for those you love and yourself. even today's event shows you that you can't take things for granted. every action and move you make you must make with caution and 'use your brains', be aware of your surroundings and be aware of the risks. after this experience you'll change the way you live especially your outlook on life.i think you're going to be at home more often and more strict keeping those you love by your side just so you know that they aren't some place where something bad could happen to them.  after these few events i kind of wonder how i'm going to act from now on...i guess i'm going to be the same...cos what is the point in changing? but i think i'm going to be more cautious and possibly hermit this coming holidays. the outside world is dangerous =x as mother says...just stay at home!

this will definitely scar you and possibly give you a phobia. i don't know why this happened to you but i know you'll be fine. just be as strong as we know you are. today you really showed the grown up side of you even though you are still a kid, it's crazy to think you are still only so young and have matured so fast. i know it can be lonely at times for you but in the end you still are our baby. the pain in their faces today stunned me... to see your child in such pain and to see your child's body in such a state is the most heart breaking thing a parent and sibling could go through. just stay safe and a whitelighter will heal you in no time :)

state of the gorgon's castle :(

everything will get better in the end, i do believe that. this is just a bump in the road

v. twenty six poses

so...recently i've started bikrum yoga!

the first time almost died. i gave up half way and waited for the floor poses with jess. teressa was sooooo good! she got through the whole thing!
the second time wasn't too bad :) much better! time flew by pretty fast and i got through the WHOLE thing ! YAY! jess went twice that day and brought jackie. haha jackie hated it soooo much =\ so i think she's going to stick to shemoves ;)
and the third time was going to be at eight am but it was full :( so instead we went breakkies :)
but yeah going to go at four pm today with my mother and sister :) i think mother and sister are going to die.

bikrum is actually pretty fun. the amount you sweat is so ewww but it's worth it !
should have a bikurm yoga date with everyone :$

on other notes...

miniature pug x beagle 

i have one more exam left on tuesday then i am done! but i think i might flunk this one :( dynamics isn't exactly the easiest subject >.< and i don't have stupid alan kan nearby =[
after exams, it is allllllll dynasty and paper work for 2011.
from the video that cat posted, dj moto sounds pretty good =) kinda exciting!

and...i don't think i'm going overseas anymore to USA/Europe. at this stage, the trip has pretty much been cancelled. so much money lost :( but oh wells as long as he gets better that's all that matters right? :) so christmas in perth ! orrr...might go singapore for a bit! i want to dye my hair!!!!!!!
i'm supposed to be starting to go church every weekend from now on . . . i haven't been in sooo long =\
anddd... yay might be getting a dog or two :):) i want a miniture pugg hehe they're sooo cute! but papa wants a retriever =\ they're so big =[



and lastly...


happy birthday jono !

you or me?

timing.

just friends

possession.

fairytale

someday my prince will come...

yeah don't think so Snow White.

apples ;)

dear diary

it does shit all.

for you II

gossip

ice

faking a smile is a lot easier than explaining what's wrong

freeze!

for you

http://butthetruthis.tumblr.com/post/1394255433/he-says-to-the-ex-girlfriend-do-you-want-to-hang

Q...

you're stupid






eos

v.line up

it will only be a matter of time before the chaos begins again...
same old cycle.
same old drama. 
same old stupidity.


get your tickets now!








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sixteenth of november :)

v.FINALLY

YAY!!!! it finally happened!! TOTALLY MADE MY DAY:)

i can study now :)

JEN IS SINGING OUT LOUD IN A LIBRARY =.=

DRUNK BITCH

epic fail

study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study study 


i epic fail in studying :(
just too addicted to the power of three :(

v.restart

it's a new month. all good things come to an end and even if you love him, you know and i know you deserve better. you have been going around in circles for a while now and sooner or later you have to make the best decision for yourself. he's not going to realise and he's not going to change. he has his priorities set and it's apparent you high on that list. there is no point in putting yourself through this over and over again!
everyone else can see who is and who isn't a priority to him, you may be important, but not as important as another. it's hard for friends to see you go through this time and time again as we can only really stand by and watch because the decision is yours. we're always here keeping an eye out for you ready to catch you when you fall any time any day :)


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EXAMS ARE A POS
I HATE UNI
i'd like to say i'll change next semester but really my focus on uni work will die even more
major sigh.