v.day two

when it comes to crushes, crushing on people isn't hard. anyone that makes you feel special, anyone that you get attracted to physically or emotionally can instantly make you have butterflies in your stomach when you're around them.their presence just makes you happy, smile, nervous and shy. you can change when you're around them, because you want to be better and make them notice you, but in the end, what they really liked was the real you, not the you, you thought they would want.

i realise now that the difference between having a crush and really liking someone is that a crush isn't serious business, it's just plain surface feelings, nothing too deep. you know when you're having a crush, but as to knowing if you really like someone can be freaking confusing. because some people just don't know what they want :$

when i think about it, me crushing on you, like every other girl at uni was inevitable. spending that time together after classes etc made me crush on you even more, enough to pull me away from you because why would i want to dig myself into a hole i couldn't get out off? as if you would have ever been interested. in my mind, it was just a lost cause :( even though things have changed, it's sad how we barely even got to know each other really...to even become 'good friends'. even if i see you now i'm like :$ but what can i do if i have a little crush on you.

having crushes on people is only natural, crushes and liking people are all based on attraction.

do similar people really repel and opposites attract? 

Q.二

Day 2 - Your Crush

you were my first crush.

perhaps it was the fact that we both played piano,
and our teacher liked us as a little couple..
or perhaps that we were the "asian couple" of the class,
that our parents knew each other,
and we went over to each other's houses to play more often than the other kids did.

whatever it was,
we were always together,
and you attracted me.

and even until now,
i think back to that attraction,
and reminisce.
it was a nice feeling.

everything is always more simple when you're young.

but all good things, always come to an end.
that's why they call it a crush.
because in the end, you'll only be crushed by it.
crushed by the feelings,
crushed by the emotions.

i was young.
i didn't understand.
but if you were to come back to my life now,
i doubt i would have avoided crushing on you again,

SN