V.fade

it's beginning to fade, and i don't know why
is it because my head is finally convincing my heart?
is it because i can just lose interest that easily?
is it because of the situation?
is this what i want? do i want you? do i want this to end?
am i actually in this for real? or, am i just in this for fun?
am i supposed to let this go and move on?
or, am i supposed to find a way to respark us in my mind?
the question is, am i to be selfless or selfish?
"i don't know what i want" but i do know right from wrong.
to choose a path for my happiness? or,
to choose a path for a clear conscience? or, both?
when the time comes to finally make a decision,
i hope in the end i make the right choice for me
because i don't want to look back and regret
what could have been or what should have been.

crush

the words i expected to come from your mouth
are not the words i wanted to hear
you always seem to crush what little faith i have
unless we come to a compromise,
there won't be anything left to have faith in.

has it ever crossed your mind?
are we just friends? is there more?
why do i keep running from the truth?
all i ever think about is you.
all that we can be, where this thing can go?
cause i've tried and tried to walk away
is it really just another crush?
you tell me.

~~~~~xo~~~~~

you crush my hopes and expectations of you,
time and time again.

why do I associate myself with you?
I can't even answer that myself anymore.