Day 29 - The person that you want to tell everything to, but too afraid to.
you say that you understand what i'm going through,
but do you really?
if i told you everything that i went through,
everything that happened to me,
every thought that i've had in my head,
would you look at me differently?
you're really special to me.
we have a strong but not needy bond.
i never want that to change.
so i'm just going to keep everything a secret from you.
JW
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
v.day twenty-nine
no one.
there isn't someone i'm too scared to tell everything to.
wait maybe one. but that person will come along when they do.
they'll find out what they need to when the time comes.
there isn't much to tell.
only a warning.
there isn't someone i'm too scared to tell everything to.
wait maybe one. but that person will come along when they do.
they'll find out what they need to when the time comes.
there isn't much to tell.
only a warning.
i never wanna see you cry and i never wanna tell a lie
Burden
Being the way I am is tiring.
Being affected by the way you are is pure madness.
The way I react is the result of your actions.
Being spoiled, being treated the way I have, being relied on when it's not needed results in me.
I'm not her creation, but yours.
I am who you have influenced, made and nurtured me to be.
What you see is what you get.
What you see is your mirror image.
You don't like what you see? Sure get rid of the problem. It's the easiest option is it not?
I'd rather disappear entirely then forever deal with this.
Sometimes I wish something terminal would happen to me. It's nothing emo...it is just plain easier. The years of dealing with you cut by more than half. It would be peace.
She says that what is one month of peace going to do to a lifetime ahead. I believe that a month's peace is better than nothing.
I'm sorry for the way I am. I truly am. I'm sorry I'm a piece of shit that doesn't appreciate what she has right in front of her. I'm sorry that I am just a waste of your money. I guess you really should just find something else to invest in.
I run to my room to hide because that is my freedom. This is your house, your rules, your food, your bed, your clothes, your life to control.
I'm sorry I don't change for the better. I'm sorry that I don't make it easier for you to deal with. You have more than enough on your plate without the extra burden.
Appreciate what she does for you.
You hold more of the blame than anyone.
I hope one day you lose her.
For her happiness is worth hurting you more than a million times over and over again.
Being affected by the way you are is pure madness.
The way I react is the result of your actions.
Being spoiled, being treated the way I have, being relied on when it's not needed results in me.
I'm not her creation, but yours.
I am who you have influenced, made and nurtured me to be.
What you see is what you get.
What you see is your mirror image.
You don't like what you see? Sure get rid of the problem. It's the easiest option is it not?
I'd rather disappear entirely then forever deal with this.
Sometimes I wish something terminal would happen to me. It's nothing emo...it is just plain easier. The years of dealing with you cut by more than half. It would be peace.
She says that what is one month of peace going to do to a lifetime ahead. I believe that a month's peace is better than nothing.
I'm sorry for the way I am. I truly am. I'm sorry I'm a piece of shit that doesn't appreciate what she has right in front of her. I'm sorry that I am just a waste of your money. I guess you really should just find something else to invest in.
I run to my room to hide because that is my freedom. This is your house, your rules, your food, your bed, your clothes, your life to control.
I'm sorry I don't change for the better. I'm sorry that I don't make it easier for you to deal with. You have more than enough on your plate without the extra burden.
Appreciate what she does for you.
You hold more of the blame than anyone.
I hope one day you lose her.
For her happiness is worth hurting you more than a million times over and over again.
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