insomnia

because i can't sleep till you're next to me,

no i can't live without you no more,

oh i stay up till you're next to me,

till this house feels like it did before.

feels like insomnia.

love.crush.messed up.enough.

you're the reason i sleep so late at night.

even if it's sometimes for all the wrong reasons.

~~~~~xo~~~~~

"even in my darkest nightmares i sleep easy,

because i know you're at the end of it to comfort me."

he was once the one

who was at the end of every dream,

whom i could not stop dreaming abt,

and now, lose slp over.

thankyou.

for creating my dreams,

for continually giving me dreams,

and brutally crushing them,

with ur bare hands.

V.predict

we can never predict the future,

what will happen to you or i,

not for next month, next year or even tomorrow.

what you really want,

that's for you to know and others to find out,

what you really need,

that's for others to think they know and you to discover

it's funny how predictable it is,

your response, whether through words or actions,

how expected. you're just so you.

it's funny how unpredictable this is,

how easy it is for you to bond

let's only hope for the best :)

but what ever happens,

happens for a reason,

whether or not its explainable.

so for now just go with the flow.

and be only as ready as you can be.

and only take on as much as you can handle.

otherwise, it's just too tiring.

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2 more days.

1 more day.

sleep i really do miss you =$

fantasy

only you can make it hard for me

to differentiate between fantasy and reality.

only you can make my life

a heaven and a hell

in my heart, it doesn't really matter where I am,

as long as we're together

but in my head, it really shouldn't be

and what we have shouldn't exist.

~~~~~xo~~~~~

this is a place where hope is but dreams,

dreams is but illusions,

illusions are caused by drugs,

and yu, are merely my fantasy..

dislike

the more you overcompensate with the things you do

the less you are liked in general.

why? because it's not really who you are.

and really, it's just plain annoying,

to see, to hear and to be around

no one needs to try so hard to be liked,

and no one needs to try so hard to receive attention.

change before you get left behind.

i dislike you at the moment.

~~~~~xo~~~~~

i don't hate.
i dislike.
i dislike your ways
i dislike your style
i dislike your thinking
i dislike your ego
i dislike you.


close to the point where you make me almost angry.
but again,
i don't hate.
and i try to avoid anger.


please don't make me explode.
it won't be pretty.
trust me.