Sunday, November 20, 2011

sweet tooth

omg :( this year i have such a huge sweet tooth !

wonder if it's cos tricia picked up baking :x

mmm cake and icecream ftw!

sago lets go find a dessert buffet! you get the cheesecake i'll get the icecream! WHOOPWHOOP

if you dated yourself, what would you be insecure about?

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

it's weird how some people affect us. it's not something you can really explain.

its a feeling you can't put into words. there may be facts and legit reasons as to why you should or shouldn't care, but regardless of facts or reasons, that care factor will exist.

if people ask you, why you care or why do we still let certain people affect us, we can only answer with 'i don't know'.

do you think that the only way to stop caring is to replace them?

but still, it'll never be quite exactly the same as how it was with them.


#dilemma

Monday, November 14, 2011

ink

if i got a small tattoo for the important people in my life or each person who has made a huge impact on it, i wonder what i'd get to remind me of them.
if i keep caring less, what will i ever end up caring about?

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

back

i want to go back,
back to when it was happy days,
where nothing caused us sadness,

hopefully this is just a phase.



happy were the days when we were all together :)

hello quarter life crisis

when overthinking kills,
your expectations haven't been met,
you aren't where you thought you'd be,
and happily ever after doesn't exist.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Q. 最好的我

我不在乎什么天长地久,
我只在乎你想不想要拥有.
一颗真心和温暖的手,
在身後 陪 你微笑 或泪流.

我不在乎你下次回来待多久,
我只在乎这心动前所未有.
我不会走, coz I love you so,
想给你最好的我, 就算只是朋友.

还想和你做朋友
想念 your big brown eyes
可爱的 lips I wanna kiss
I miss 想一直牵着你的手
但我还年轻 心不定 又能怎么办

Boy, 有什么话开不了口
No worries 我只是用脑想过头
拥有了又想自由 自由又想拥有
等待着 空逛着 有话别保留

他们说刮风的时候
你总选择要一个人颤抖
Guess you'll never know
coz I'll never show
为了谁你不自由

我不在乎什么天长地久,
我只在乎你想不想要拥有.
一颗真心和温暖的手,
在身後 陪 你微笑 或泪流.

我不在乎你下次回来待多久,
我只在乎这心动前所未有.
我不会走, coz I love you so,
想给你最好的我, 就算只是朋友.

信 不过别人把你追走
也信 不过自己暂时把你拥有
你低头喝着酒 别只顾喝着酒
"做朋友" 是保护你
最坏也是最好的藉口

我明白要你爱是荒谬的要求
我明白有些默契我必须要遵守
只是你眼眸 走漏了一种
baby baby 想爱不能爱的哀愁

Hey, 好久不见 重记得你钟意听
不如不见 记得以前和你分享我的
担心, 烦恼, 还有我的骄傲
但现在我们之间却变得越来越有礼貌

When we broke up
你的朋友一定拍手说好
现在你身边的他们大概都不喜欢我
但是我还是我 我还一样地活
The reason why 我决定离开
There is only one reason why

Coz I know you deserve better and more
没了我大家信不过的那个星座
你一定要好好生活 别想太多
为什么我写了这首歌 只想用心对你说

I love you and I still do I love you now
But It is just in a different way if I may
Hey, be sure I know you used to love me more
But now as a friend
我知道当我离开世界的那一天

你一定会 流泪 在我的照片 前面
and I'll do the same
not coz I'm once your man
coz you have always be like my family to me
这不是秘密

但是你身边仍没有 几多人知
流过的泪 说过的话 仍在我心中
虽然已经失去你
以后如果在街上碰到你和你心爱的那个谁
吾好避  我会微笑 带礼貌 地欣然面对

I wish you luck, wish you health, wish you love
with a smile and a hug.
I wish you luck, wish you health, wish you love
with his smile, and his hug.

我不在乎你下次回来待多久,
我只在乎这心动前所未有.
But I have to go, coz I love you so,
想给你最好的我, 就算只是朋友.

我不在乎什么天长地久,
我只在乎你想不想要拥有.
一颗真心和温暖的手,
在身後 陪你微笑 或泪流.

我不在乎你下次回来待多久,
我只在乎这心动前所未有.
我不会走, Coz I Love You So.
想给你最好的我, 就算只是朋友.

Nice to meet you,
I'm very happy that I have met you in my life.
谢谢你.
and here, I wish you love and health.
Hope to see you again. Good bye.



<3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SAjYPxyeE_w

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Q. 长情

Candlelight Dinner, a man and a woman is seated at a table

"I like you" the woman says quietly, swirling the liquor in her wine glass.
"I have a wife" the man says, touching the ring on his finger.
"I don't care, I just want to know how you feel. Do you like me?"


The answer was expected. The man lifts his face, looks at the woman - 24 years old, young, vibrant, a brilliant age. Pure white skin, an energetic body, and beautiful bright eyes; eyes that spoke to you. What a great girl, too bad.

"If you like me too, I don't mind being your girlfriend", the woman persists.
"I love my wife", the man was persistent, too
"You love her? What do you love about her? Around about now, she would be getting old, and you'd be ashamed to bring her out. Otherwise, why didn't you bring her to the Company Party? ...", the woman wanted to continue, but after seeing the man's ice cold expression to her words, 

she stopped.
 

*silence...

"What do you like about me?", the man finally spoke.
"Mature and stable; you're are a gentleman, you know how to care about people; a lot of things. Nonetheless, you are different to all the other men I know. You're special."


"Do you know how I was like, three years ago?" the man lit himself a cigarette.
"I don't know, and I don't care, even if you went to jail."

"Three years ago, I was one of those 'average' men that you see" the man ignored the woman and continued, "I graduated from a very average college, work was not ideal for me, I drank, I was angered, I didn't know how to treat women"
"So what changed?", the woman was interested, "because of her?"
"Yes."
 

"The person that she was, it was as though it was easy for her to see the inside of things. She taught me a lot, taught me how to treat people right; how to let the small things go; to not care so much about winning and losing; to delve deeper into life, than to live by what's on the surface. At that time, I was like a child. An immature, ignorant child. Perhaps that feeling is similar to the feeling which you have towards me right now. The strange thing was, no matter how rash and stubborn I was, I only ever listened to her words, followed her directions. I accepted the truth, I knew I was useless, so I worked hard. At the end of that year, I had risen in my work place, and we got married.", the man flicked his cigarette, and kept speaking as the ashes fell.


"It was a really hard time for the two of us. One room, one bed, with pathetically minimal amount of furniture and fittings. You know? It took me a whole year after marriage, to buy her her first diamond ring. I saved for a good half a year. Of course, behind her back. If she knew that I was doing this, she would have never agreed.


"During that time, alcohol and smoking had weakened my body. Long winter nights, she would always make me soup before I sleep. That special taste, it belonged to her and her only.", the man was immersed in memories, he'd lost track of time, and continued to reminisce the past.


And the woman, had no intention of interrupting him. She listened intently, quietly, until the man had noticed, it was already 10pm.

"Oh, sorry, I hadn't noticed it was already so late", the man apologised with a faint smile, "Do you understand now? I cannot, and will not, do anything to wrong her."

"Yes, I understand now. I admit defeat to that kind of woman" the woman shook her head unwillingly, "but you know, when I get to her age, I will be great too."
"Yes, I'm sure. And you can find yourself a great man too, right? It's late, let me send you home", the man stood up, and gestured to the exit.
"No, it's fine. I can get home on my own." she waved to him "Go! Don't make her wait."

The man smiled, turned and was about to leave.
"Is she pretty?"

"Yes", he replied "the most beautiful woman I had ever seen" and with that, he disappeared into the dark. The woman left behind, by herself, against the candlelight.

The man returned home, pushed opened his door, walked quietly towards the bedroom.

He sat down on the edge of the bed, and turned on the bedside lamp.
"It was the fourth one today. Why did you make such a good man out of me, so many people like  me! Be careful, I might have a change of heart!" he chuckled, then his face dropped, "You made such a good man of me, but you went first, leaving me behind... I'm so lonely..." the man's voice faded into the night.

Tears.
Tears slide down the man's cheek, and land on the photo frame resting in his palms.
In the faint light of the lamp, the frame contains an old faded yellow-tinged photo, picturing a woman with a plain, gentle beauty.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

What does it mean

Drinking doesn't solve your problems
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Wednesday, July 13, 2011

internetless

so...its almost 11.30pm...just arrived in singapore this evening

don't have net cos stupid singtel won't accept the credit cards :( so now I'm super dooper bored

last night was pretty fun doing star sign astrology research:) hehe :$ scorpios are horny
libras are apparently good for no strings attached and they don't know what they want - hence the tagging sway goe.
lol but yeah...pretty much whatever was said in the blog helen found was right :/ kinda scary and weird but interesting :)

I can't wait to go back to Perth!

One more day till Korean Music Wave
Few more days till lasik
Week till home sweet home <3
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Friday, July 8, 2011

withdrawal symptoms

Its going to be so weird without you,
Going to miss you like crazy,
Who would have ever guessed
That you would have found a place in my heart
Kind Regards,

Vanessa Chia

Friday, April 22, 2011

Let it go...

so whatever it is,
you do what you want,
I'm not going to stop you
and be in your way

sure it hurts for some unknown reason,
but hey, life is a bitch isn't it.
some people get things so easily,
I guess...it was meant to be?

I hope what your doing
can help fill the empty void
it's okay...as long as you're happy
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Monday, April 18, 2011

quit

you've been warned a countless number of times
sure do what you want...make your own mistakes
but if i've already warned you and what i say comes true
don't expect me to be there for you. ever.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

v.mental

i'm going to go mental soon.

epic fail day.

you're such an ass.
don't be a bully >=(

Friday, March 4, 2011

v.idiot

you are such an idiot.
ffs grow up.
know what is fucking good for you and what isn't
know what to do during what time and place

v.torn

so it's like this...

you're always going to be a baby to me that i have to look out for.
joining these clubs are just an aid to getting the friends that you want.
i've told you before that it is their loss if they don't have you.
reason why? not just because you're related to me, it's because you know how to go about things the right way.
joining cs will be a burden on you.
joining asia you'll be good for them, but they'll be bad for you.

in the end..your choice.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Q.

What would you do?
If I walked up to you
And I told ya how I feel
About ya now?



=/

v.bounce

lol so umm...I got a dog yesterday!
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Thursday, February 17, 2011

Q.自知之明

you know when you don't like someone,
and it's quite obvious to those people around you.
and perhaps to that person themselves too.

but that person decides to go ahead and ignore it anyway.
yeh, that gets annoying.

get the hint.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

v.day

it's around the corner. how depressing :(
lol people should stop giving us false hope cos when nothing happens it's going to be even more depressing :(
damn...as helen said, huge smack in the face :(

Monday, February 7, 2011

Q.stay

Jackie needs to stay home more.
Jackie needs to stay at work more.
otherwise her parents are gna get v.pissed soon.

this is how my schedule is recently;...

*wake up
*work
*skip work to hang with Jess
*work
*home
*random invite/random urge to go somewhere - and i do it.
*get home around/past 2am.
*slp around 3-4am
(repeat)

i need readjusting.
again.
D:

Saturday, February 5, 2011

v.fail

so my father believes he's SO smart that he know EXACTLY what he's doing in anything he does....
last night we got the notfication that we're almost going to finish our quota off which is 40GB before the quota actually dies...so 5 days for 40GB apparently is really little...so my father decides he's way smart and knows how to change the passwords. instead he's a loser who changes the iinet account which screws up the whole system and decides to wake me up early in the morning to clean up his mess.
so freaking ave =@

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Q.CNY

Happy CNY =)

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

v.family

so tonight was the big cny eve dinner! was freaking out cos there was nothing new to wear :(
but yeah...was able to catch up with my two cousins Jade and Sharon who i haven't seen in over 10 years! they hadn't even met bridget before as well! pretty sad that we never see them anymore:( anyways they're all old and grown up...time has gone by so fast! Jade is now working at Western Power as an electrical engineer and has been dating her bf since high school  = 10 freaking years ! whee ~ i hope they get married soon :) be the first in the family ! now Sharon's a pharmacist at RPH, i thought she was still dating her bf from highschool but apparently she's dating some doctor now =$ hehe working in a hospital would def gives you higher chance to end up with a doctor eh ;) oh! and saw anthony who haven't seen in yonks as well! apparently he's like good friends with christina lai and stuff eh =\ he even knows arthur and has met winsome L O L ! that was a funny convo!

ah i love reunions :) it's nice to know how everyone is and what they've been up to :)

Monday, January 31, 2011

Q.match

there were 2 couples who came into my shop today.
they were terribly mismatched.
but they would have been perfectly matched if they did partner swapsies =x

it's funny how close some things are to perfection,
but never really reach it.
it also makes me sad. =(

parents are back in town.
gay.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Q.forgetful

i forgot everything that happened last night.
i forgot that today was Sunday,
which means that i forgot my mum's coming back today.
then i forgot that i had to get my sister's school books off ness.
then i forgot to bring some of my worker's pay to work...
and now, i'm home.
i realised i forgot my wallet at work.
g fkn g.

i give up.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

satisfied

yeah i don't think so...


*sigh


i want to play bishi bashi. at least i can win there and be happier for a while

Q.long time

oh hello blogger,
i have not seen you in a long long time,
why?

probably because BBNH and CS have been working together to eat my SOUL away
D:

but that's ok.
i'll make more effort to blog about the repetitiveness of my everyday life. =)

so today,
i was so tired,
from cleaning up last night,
that i picked up a menu from my restaurant
and tried to put it in the till.
and left the money on the counter.

yeh,
i have no idea what i was thinking.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

v.free

looking back at all the smiles and laughter and random stupid things you once did as a kid you really do appreciate your parents for giving you a childhood. the freedom to go off and have fun with your cousins, get your face painted and bury your siblings at the beach are one of the rare moments where you are really living life to the fullest. i hope one day my kids will be able to experience it :)


perth may be a hole, but it's still home :)

by the way, although i may not know you that well, i don't think you should stay. there's a whole world out there! sure you'll miss home but imagine the opportunities you could make for yourself...

Sunday, January 2, 2011

v.bad bad bad

SO I'M A REALLY BAD INFLUENCE
BAD
BAD
BAD
INFLUENCE
MY BABY COUSIN IS ON THE PATH TO SKANK AND SLUTTY VILLE
=[

5am, i just got home. and i'm kinda glad you introduced me to clubbing. borrowed some of your 'dirty' moves and applied them to 3 guys




:(

v.annoy

i dont know why but you annoy me like crazy.
maybe it is just easier to just cut you off.
i don't know why the lamest or littlest things that you that have nothing to do with me can piss me off and annoy me till no end. but whatever.


perth is boring already. i wanna go back to singapore :(