static

a word that completely defines where i am at this present time.

not moving forward nor backward, just stationary and still.

~~~~~xo~~~~~

bzzzz
shock me
with ur static elect ;]

V.chemistry

chemistry.
is that what we have?
chemistry.
how do we know if we have it?
chemistry.
what you want but you can't have
chemistry.
someone define it for me
chemistry.

but the planets all aligned

when you looked into my eyes

and just like that

watch the chemicals react

the chemicals react

bliss

being in a state of mind where nothing can affect you,
being satisfied with where you are and who are you are,
not being affected by the choices that person makes,
being blissful is quite relaxing and therapeutic don't you think? :)

~~~~~xo~~~~~

to being in a state of bliss
means you have to be truly happy.
ah, i wish i could feel that once again..

V.black and white

last night was the white party!
music was soooo good! BUT i missed out on my song :( but it's ok helen :) it was worth the little chat we had :) overall, a pretty good night i must admit disregarding the few drunken girlies but at least they danced :) so many people were out!
roadtrip sounds quite interesting =x

WHITE

• ME - PURITY! i am not a slut. i am not a whore. these titles have been gladly given and taken by other people:)
• KA-SENG - haven't seen this boy in AGES :) was sooo good to see him at ktv and metros hehe :)
• JUN - hope you had a good birthday =D 
• JOHN - thanks for the rides home :)
• TIM - usual fun as always ;) yay for good music and yay for being hangover free!
• ANNIE - FIRST TIME OUT IN AGES <3 i've missed you!
• BEC - what can i say, fun as always =)
• JOSH - SORRY! XOXO we are soooooooooooo unimaginably awesome! alan kan has been infected =x ! so pure josh =$ didn't do anything stupid at all :) except maybe get angry at some girl =S but you shldn't judge bitches >=( whee can't imagine metros nights without you =$

BLACK

• SAGO - INFECTED BY THE MOST IMPURE OF THEM ALL good luck to gaining that purity back sago! NOT COOL >=(
• ALAN - popped his metros cherry and became a WHORE       (kudos to josh & i =] )
• JACKIE - drunk ass girl - couldn't even barely make it into metros + was in the toilet yakking her brains out for AGES
• HELEN - kicked out minutes entering metros  =.= bouncers are so mean =( telling her to fk off twice =( but it's a-okay we went walkies =) AND lost almost everything in her purse =.=" so fail! luckily she has her phone and ID =$
• JEN - as usual the drunkard, but apparently drinking 151 instead of tequila what a NOOB! but without a drunk Jen it wouldn't be a normal night out =)

now...to go out next weekend or not =S

TO GO:

• asia camp 
• roadtrip

getting sick fml :( clubbing in winter is so bad :( because it's so cold!
jackie xu is leaving perth soon :(
nj has left perth :(
who else is leaving soon :(

V.fade

it's beginning to fade, and i don't know why
is it because my head is finally convincing my heart?
is it because i can just lose interest that easily?
is it because of the situation?
is this what i want? do i want you? do i want this to end?
am i actually in this for real? or, am i just in this for fun?
am i supposed to let this go and move on?
or, am i supposed to find a way to respark us in my mind?
the question is, am i to be selfless or selfish?
"i don't know what i want" but i do know right from wrong.
to choose a path for my happiness? or,
to choose a path for a clear conscience? or, both?
when the time comes to finally make a decision,
i hope in the end i make the right choice for me
because i don't want to look back and regret
what could have been or what should have been.

crush

the words i expected to come from your mouth
are not the words i wanted to hear
you always seem to crush what little faith i have
unless we come to a compromise,
there won't be anything left to have faith in.

has it ever crossed your mind?
are we just friends? is there more?
why do i keep running from the truth?
all i ever think about is you.
all that we can be, where this thing can go?
cause i've tried and tried to walk away
is it really just another crush?
you tell me.

~~~~~xo~~~~~

you crush my hopes and expectations of you,
time and time again.

why do I associate myself with you?
I can't even answer that myself anymore.

V.tomorrow

the pain is still yet to come..

it's going to wear off soon

for jen kan,
the sun will come out tomorrow

bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow

there'll be sun!

just thinkin' about tomorrow

clears away the cobwebs and the sorrow

'til there's none!

--
i hate being left out =[
everyone is getting drunk =[
i'm at home by myself =[
i guess it'll just be a movie/drama night 
hopefully i won't get too bored too fast =[

thank you jen kan and sss for the rides :)

Q.?

why do you have a hold on me?

I can get so angry at you
on the phone.
online.
texting.

but when I see your face,
I forget why I was angry.

I hate you.

V.past

it's amazing how much we've changed. 


high school will always be a great and happy memory :)
our awesome lunchtimes - our EPIC feasts! bringing in food from home! best lunches ever! who can forget the antics of Miss Melinda Wong never mix this girl with food. 
Melinda Wong + food = not a pretty sight + not a very happy ness
in between class in the locker room - annie + jess + locker room = rape, ness + jess + locker room = rape 
during class - letters, notes, getting told off for talking too much, planning trips :$
outside of class - bubbletea, debating, karaoke, timezone :)
everything in high school was a joy :) 


one strawberry slut asked if i could change anything in high school, what would it be?
i answered nothing :) there's nothing i would change. 
i wouldn't trade those memories made with those girls for anything. we may have had our ups and downs, we may be pretty much different to the bone, each of us, but we're still the pc girls :) 
no matter if we're apart or together:) 
the seven of us :)


i miss you angel.i miss you jess.i miss you mel.i miss you twin.i miss you annie.i miss you jackie.i miss chi.che.cho.i miss charsiew.sarsiew.i miss ken&koh.i miss hunnybunchkins.
i miss us all together :(
i miss the way we were :(

sago said we were the wannabe new wfc last year :O 

i miss you sago!

twist

you seem to know your way around,
to twist and turn through the loopholes,
always able to make your presence known in my life,
i don't think i'll ever be rid of you,
not that i would want that to happen either :)

~~~~~xo~~~~~

don't twist my words into your own.
don't twist the story in your favour.
don't twist the way things are meant to be.

grow up.