v.move

my sisters seem to be moving into my room -.-
they seem to be sleeping over more and more these few days =[
my dads like why don't you all move in the same room together!

freaking ... is pissing me off =@ so freaking stupid. mixing her words, complaining about the change, trying to hold on to what has already been passed on =@
you've already had your turn and right now you aren't really doing anything for the benefit of the club. you are freaking trying to do it for yourself, your career and reputation. go and die in a hole stupid pos.

i need more shows to watch :( vampire diaries doesn't continue till dec and even then it's only got two episodes left :( hrmm i need something to keep me occupied =\ CS stuff only goes so far =\

v.boredom

so last night went back to metros since jackie wanted to go out for a bit. was about to bail when she called me and told me she was outside =[
ms helen le didn't even make an appearance ! but she didn't miss out on much anyways lucky her i would have rather stayed home! music was ave until the end end. like a g6 is a really good song but it's wayy too slow to be a really good clubbing song =\  sooo many people is ave...especially in summer...
i think the highlight of my night was laughing at jason each time sam tran tried to get with him. man he so fail! didn't even like say good bye to her properly he just ran far far away!
ah my dear sam tran really is quite the loose miss =\ the rumours are true =x
man there were so many actual sluts last night o.O was so like :O i mean people call me a slut/skank but pfft i'm nothing compared to them! PURITY O=) i wonder if i should name them...maybe i won't..cos last night i was being even more bitchy than usual =x haha oh wells...meh..it was boring last night so that killed time. short little girls should not push big girls like moi and stand on some people's feet i.e. jackie's otherwise they are in for it big time =@ dotdotdot
orange didn't hook in D: i was so bored i kept trying to push people together but that failed!
there were these gay boys that were near us at the end and sago turned straight for a bit so he wldnt go near him hahahaha and one of them was interested in jong xin apparently ;)
andy was there last night =) =) he seems too upper class to be on the dancefloor in metro city =\ he belongs in places like minQ bar =x lol and apparently tim got oneitis last night =$ wonder who the lucky girl was ;)

end of saturday night and sunday morning

LET'S GO YUM CHA TMR =D !!!!!

v.brave

after all that has happened you blame no one, you just sit through the pain with a smile on your face :)  i don't know how you are so brave and grown up at your age...it's pretty damn amazing !
you make me smile because you're so strong whilst making me sad watching you endure what has happened to you. for your sake and theirs, i really hope that there are no scars to burden you, i don't know how she would be able to handle seeing your face everyday with a scar reminding her everyday of what happened as well as them.
my dear little bubble be as happy as you can be and live your precious life to the fullest :) holding your small little hand everyday makes my day just that much better =]

i love you!



and as for you, i'm glad you came out fine with no complications and hopefully are sleeping well :) let's hope nothing else comes back to surprise us :)

v.decisions

some rules are broken "just for fun"...like hrmm sneaking out of your house to go metros on saturday nights.
but some rules are just not meant to be trifled with at all. some things are just meant to be respected and left alone and if you actually break the rule that isn't meant to be broken, you lose a whole lot of respect and gain a whole lot of disgust and disappointment in you and your decision. but i guess as most say things happen for a reason.

--

so lately i've become a tv-addict. i guess my boredom has really surfaced and i just watch charmed and pokemon all day which i guess i don't mind. pokemon is really fun to watch :) pikachu is SOOOO CUTE! totally want one! oh and vulpix :) magikarp is the worst piece of crap ever freaking fish. ugh so fucking annoying to watch it  =@ magi karp karp karp karp...
charmed is getting boring-ish...it was only good when cole was around :) bad boys are sooo hot =$
leo is a fatty now and darryl is a fatty too. no goodalooking guys :( nick lachey is right now phoebes love interest =) =) AND WYATT AND CHRIS ARE WAYY TOO CUTE! *sigh  makes me smile :):)

well anyways time for sleepies. early early morning wake up tmr :) hope things go well for both of you =) i hope you heal with no scars to haunt you in the future and i hope it isn't a serious case and you'll be up and running in no time with no future hassles

don't take shit from nobody

leilockheart =]

Q.真的

真的

我努力的仰着脸孔
试着让眼泪不往下流 别往下流
不安的感觉到什么
在我生活中不再相同 很不相同

想要说 却还沉默
伸出手 无法触碰

天空突然一片辽阔
原来你是真的已经离开我
在我不熟悉的世界过新的生活

闭上眼 让泪水滑落
此刻你已真的永远离开我
在另外一个没有我的世界 自由的走

v.last

so tmr will be my last exam which i will totally flunk. i don't even think super duper stoopid alan kan will be able to help me :( mechanical dynamics you make me so so so sad :(
zac and jeremiah wna drink tmrs =\ since we don't like beer zac and i are going to drink water and zac feels a tad naughty so he wants some lemon too :) sparkling water is soo gross ! bottled - still water ftw !!
zac says he assumed i liked sparkling cos i'm all posh and what not drinking tea with my pinky up in the air
and thuy today was like i thought you had a boyfriend! i was like no i'm single =) and she's like you look like those people with boyfriends -.- *sigh
and she said i looked gangster :( :( :( :(

after tmr...exams will be the least of my problems....there's so much to do and deal with =\ i gotta deal with dynasty stuff and 2011 stuff and family stuff and friend stuff sighs.
ooo on a happy note dear thuy has helped me finish off selling my tickets =] she's way too pro. my $15 batch one is officially sold out and my other $20 ones yay! thank you thuy <3
thank you stupid alan kan for helping me in cfp and mech =) epic love! cannot wait till next year =$ i'm considering deferring my finance units for you =$
end of second year is tomorrow kinda scary thinking about being a third year =o tricia's going to be a fresher as well =\ wonder what will happen...mother says she'll end up not seeing both us at all next year haah guess we'll see =) april two thousand and eleven marks the cutting down of metros hopefully =]
i shall try and not procrastinate any longer...mechanical dynamics you are going to make me cry tomorrow!

reality strikes.

leilockheart

v.stoopid

things can only get better. you've gotten past this  point before and i'm sure you can pass it once again. for now, all you can do is cry it all out and get it out of your system where you have no more tears to shed and you become tired of wasting your sadness tears and everything on him. the rest of us can only be a shoulder for you to cry on. no matter what we say it won't make the hurt go away, no matter what we do that person will still be on the back of your mind. so all that is needed is either a rebound =x for distraction or to live with it till time heals the wound. you've had a slip up and even though you thought you could handle it you couldn't. saying i told you so isn't really going to change anything so hopefully this is just another mistake you learn from. i know his attention and presence makes you happy but that happiness won't last and i think you know that now. you have said you're stupid which i do believe you are at times but when it comes to your heart and your love nothing can stop you.

just breathe. it'll hurt. but you can only get stronger from this.

v.fefe dobson

so i found a new song that i really love

stuttering - fefe dobson


it was the music act for the latest episode of hellcats.
i don't know why i love the song so much =\ i mean the lyrics don't really apply to me but i guess i like the melody and instrumental =] but yeah i love it muchly :) jackie and jess love it muchly too
jackie's favourite line "there's a whole lot of things that i will forgive but i just can't take a liar"

it's you and me against the world

that's what you said

if you can't be honest with me 

i'm afraid this is the end

hurry up hurry up

if you ever really cared about me

tell the truth, give it up

you sound guilt cos you're stuttering