v.tired

tired of being asked the same question,

because i don't know the answer.

my eyes are sore

you have what you need

now just know what you want

accomplish

in my life, i've always listened to my parents.
been obedient when it came to decisions,
sure they've let me do a couple of things by choice,
but really, i don't think i know any other way,
i think i don't know what i want,
because i've always known what i wanted because it was my parent's wants
so now i'm lost.
i haven't accomplished anything.
and it makes me sad. and i don't think anyone can make me better.

alcohol is bad for the skin

end of story.
detox soon (hopefully)

v.fragile

i think i'm in a fragile state of mind at the moment,

anything you say or do may effect me more so now than it ever would have before,

it's a period that i will have to get over sooner or later,

what is said, what is done, you may not realise but it does effect me,

it's not something i'm going to make a big deal of as i'll deal with it as always

msu ball 2010

table 23 + gan and shaw :)

very nicely done :)
had a table full of boys. how like me :x
drank at ernst's before hand and at the ball
i paced myself pretty well
got drunk =\
i think i embarrassed myself in front of some people :(
how depressing :(
popped my emo-drunk cherry
sorry sago :( and annie :(
what a pain i must be :(

it was really fun tho,
jono is a slut :x
but I stopped it and got told off by the other boys for interfering :(

next year should be even better :)
msu dance was really good! way better than asia's i must say. hehe annie danced really well =$
claps to msu :) yay!
msu gonna pwn asia 2011 ;)

v.broken

you can still see the cracks,

the lines telling you where it hurts, 

and even if you try your best,
to let it heal over time,

it will never be the way it was
the scars are still there

october

you are here :)

Q.三十

Day 30 - Your reflection in the mirror.

You need to change.
ugh.

v.thirty

complicated. imperfect. broken.

Q.二十九

Day 29 - The person that you want to tell everything to, but too afraid to.

you say that you understand what i'm going through,
but do you really?

if i told you everything that i went through,
everything that happened to me,
every thought that i've had in my head,
would you look at me differently?

you're really special to me.
we have a strong but not needy bond.
i never want that to change.

so i'm just going to keep everything a secret from you.

JW