bitch

being a bitch isn't hard.

it's rather easy in fact...well for us =\

being pessimistic. realistic. bitchy.

can these words relate?

reality usually is a bitch.

so you might as well prepare yourself for the worst.

i'd rather be a bitch than get hurt =x

karma doesn't always work out.

what goes around doesn't always come around.

nice girls get screwed over far more than they deserve.

nice guys finish last? why is that?

they're nice, they treat you well, so why don't they ever get picked?

for someone who is your miracle, you can be their curse.

is it really that wrong to be a bitch?

Definitions for bitch

Urban Dictionary

A woman that doesn't give a flying f*ck anymore and that can and will be cruel to men

Wikipedia (context of modern feminism)

strong female (anti-stereotype of weak submissive woman), cunning (equal to males in mental guile)

~~~~~xo~~~~~

bitch.

that's what you are.

and that's why i dislike you.

bitch.

that's what i can be.

and that's why you have a reason to dislike me.

sometimes, the inner bitch just lets loose.

and some people just need to know how to control that better.

=)

V.heartbeat

a combination of ups and downs
you want a regular heart beat
not flat line nor an accelerated heart rate(a.k.a Tachycardia)

"but heartbeats always fails in the end

it will converge to a straight line"

- orange.

it depends on how strong the heart is. and how healthy that heart is :)

and as to the straight flat line in the end.

isn't that the result from either dying or the actual break up?

flames to dust

lovers to friends

why do all good things come to an end?

*credits to orange for our convo:)

i heard washed rims are a great inspiration for a blog post ;)

--

exams are coming >.<

5 more days

stupid brother hurt his ankle = no sleep ins for the week =[

which is good i guess. wake up early and study and try focus.

break is going to be great fun! july should be a good month:):)

yay to jetties :) yay to hk :)

need to buy more dresses and i want to get more heels!

retail therapy, wonder how good shopping will be there :):)

drink up with joshua jeremiah:) i won't dog you!

1:1 bring it ;)

unless! u want to do 1.5 and i do 1 :)

there seems to be a chance for one of sl10 :)

change. sound interesting ;) all the best ! xo

stability II

we think we want it.we think we need it.

stability is something we wish for,

if your life gets to a point where there is too much to handle

where there is too much to face and deal with

the peace and calm is what you want

but once the calm comes, you'll get bored in no time.

calm is boring. without some drama, our lives wouldn't be very interesting.

just because your life is stable, it doesn't necessarily mean you're happy.

just because you're happy, it doesn't mean your life has become stable

happiness doesn't come with stability

because your happiness is a high, and you can only drop from that high

V.weak

"if he's weak, he's gone"

- Alan Kan

Being whipped, does it mean you're weak?

When a relationship falls apart and you get dumped, are you the weakest link?

Would you rather be the dumper or the dumpee? the whipper or the whipped?

To show your weakness first,

to give in and/or give up before the other

What does that really show? What does that really mean?

Are you the one that's more in like/love?

Are you the weakest or the strongest link?

maybe, weak isn't the right word to describe this =\

V.save

gorgon.medusa.heartbreaker

the above names came about because of hera and zeus. =="

surprisingly, these names have caught on and stuck

Ĉǿςδρцģ says:

*poor medusa :(

*abandoned by all

*left to rot in her temple of snakes

Ĉǿςδρцģ says:

*LOL

*what a bitch!

Ĉǿςδρцģ says:

*no wonder ure stuck in ur temple forever!

I hope Hera and Zeus are happy >: (

Ĉǿςδρцģ says:

*wonder who can save u?

that is the question ;)

V.dethroned

the king has been dethroned after his epic fail at picking up a fresher girl.

however, all is fair in love and war

and we shall see how long the queen of hearts(broken) will remain in reign

--

i love it when songs that you loved long ago comes up again:)

while my itunes was randomly shuffling songs 'Hurts So Bad' by Anthony Callea came on

the lyrics hrmm =x interesting :)

happy birthday john khoo:)

asia quiz night not too bad :)

didn't win altho the prizes were pretty cool :)

costumes so much better!

sagorella so damn cute! hehe

congrats to jong xin for his win! can't believe he actually made it! v.impressive ;)

i feel like i haven't seen a lot of people these days. i haven't seen NJ or orange in so long :(!

caught up with bec today tho :) yumcha was very yummy!

i think everyone is getting into study mode which is what i shall be getting into soon(hopefully)

yay to tmr being end of semester! semester one 2nd year complete!

added to be watched list:

• friends marathon

oh! and to ninemsn's GOSS, VOTE: which glee guy is the hottest?

Mark Saling of course! Puck for the win!:) <3

Q.久

long time no blog?

i actually have so much to say.

so much to blog about.

but everytime i open this up.

i get lost.

where do i start?

what do i start with?

how do explain this feeling in words?

it's all very confusing.

V.complete

you complete me

you had me at 'hello' :)

- Jerry Mcguire

---

java completed :)!

epic <3>

goodbye java project. hello exams.

glee :) very good episode!

Can't read my, can't read my

No he can't read my poker face

I won't tell you that I love you, kiss or hug you

I want your love and I want your revenge

You and me could write a bad romance

to be watched after exams:

• glee marathon
• sex and the city 2
• iron man 2
• eclipse
• 10 things i hate about you
• how to train your dragon
• Cinderella (for NJ)

...hrmm i'm sure there are more movies/shows... to be continued

V.hate

hate is a very strong word.

it really shouldn't be used so lightly,

but you don't make it very hard for me

to associate that word with you.

V.cheat

Wikipedia defines cheating as an act of lying, deception, fraud,trickery, imposture, or imposition.

cheating is bad regardless, but as to what form is considered the worst?

when it comes to relationships,

i'd say that emotional cheating is much worse than physical.

the moment that you decide to stray away,

that is the moment that you lose that trust.

no matter how hard you work to try and mend things

that one act will always be there lurking at the back of your mind

and you will always be filled with doubt

you can try to ignore it

you can try to look past it

but you will never get over it

you will never have any closure

if you're going to cheat or if you're already on that path, at least have the decency to break up with your bf/gf now. because obviously, you aren't very happy anymore and you are finding that happiness elsewhere with someone else and not with the person you are currently in a relationship with.

what is the drive behind the act of cheating?

poor blair. stupid chuck.

wonder how gossip girl is going to survive without chuck&blair :(

*today seems to be revolving around 'cheating'

there was the comic. glee. gossipgirl. sago's quote.

wonder what else there is? =s

--

done 1/4 of my java :)

i hope josh enjoyed his special pressie today =] +:) -:( two more :( to go!

and joseph pham stay away from my sisters >: (

V.time

timing really is everything.

without the right timing,

it'll never work out.

if you don't get it right,

it won't be long before the clock will strike 12

and you have to return back to your world of dreams

where a dream is a wish your heart makes

--

watched dear john

the ending was total heartbreak =[ didn't like it all!

V.chances

taking chances.giving chances.

are we willing to risk it?

are we willing to risk the chance of getting hurt?

are we willing to risk the chance of being happy?

hrmm...an interesting year it will be.

q: to change sl10 or not? a: change is inevitable. time to make a difference to our lives

----

last night was really fun =]

low expectations at the beginning

great result in the end

music was good (altho havanabrown was replaying the songs from the previous dj)

lol jen's song came on at least twice =] but no jason derulo =[

now its time to settle down and study for exams !

Q.斗

斗胆, 斗争, 斗气.

why do i fight with yu?

i know i can never win.

yu know i'll just give in.

so why?

V.stupid

boys

are

so

damn

stupid

==''

there are reasons why sago and i are gonna open our own nunnery :)

boys are jerks

boys are stupid

purity!

V.ka-boom

people are oh so very angry these days.

maybe its because we keep it all inside for too long and we've reached our limit.

maybe its because we want something else to do, something else to see, something else that will grab our attention but we just can't seem to escape from what is bringing us sadness.

so really we're clueless =s

drinking really isn't a smart idea for 'nice' guys.

'nice' guys usually are the most dangerous when alcohol is flowing through their veins.

why? because they keep things all bottled up and once they let loose...

they epic rage and go...

ka-boom.

------

shopping was fail. dresses are major fail this season.

i think i'll start lowering expectations so things seem to be better than expected!

tomorrow night should be interesting =]

i wonder if our attempt at having a non-black dress night will be semi-successful. i think some of us need some colour to brighten up our lives.

oh! and jen proposes we all go roller blading after exams at the rollerdrome! =D

happy birthday arthur !

Q.易

one "hi",

one hug,

one smile,

one nod,

one act of acknowledgement,

one minute,

one moment,

one conversation,

one move,

one word.

it's all so easy..

so,

why isnt it working for us..?

V.fail

according to Jennifer Kan, Vanessa Chia fails at life =o

i must admit, i do agree to some level.

according to Rebecca Doran-Wu and Vanessa Chia, Robert Milne is a fail teacher with fail notes and fail tests

according to Vanessa Chia, May is a fail month. So many things lost. Nothing found (yet)

according to Brandon Lam, Vanessa Chia should call rename this month as 'emo-may'.

i wonder if this is the result when having a 'study' month.

bran's theory is that you get sad and everything turns bad :(

Hopefully Friday 21st May 2010, will not be a fail shopping night and new dresses can be found! :)

Hopefully Saturday 22nd May 2010, will not be a fail night out where people k.o before the night even begins!

Hopefully June 2010, will not be a fail month, because that's when exams are :(

Q.直

sometimes, ppl need to be more straightforward with the things they want.

sometimes, ppl need to be more blunt with what they mean.

sometimes, ppl need to be more plain with what they want from life.

sometimes, ppl need to be more honest with what they want others to do

sometimes, ppl need to be more open with what they want others to think

sometimes, ppl need to be more frank, stop turning corners, and come straight to the point, with some ppl.

sometimes, ppl just need to be more direct.

say what yu mean,

and mean what yu say.

V.lost

if you lose something,is it due to karma?

if you lose something, can it symbolise the end to something and the start of something new?

if you lose something, is it because you never really considered it important? and you took it forgranted?

if you lose something, is it because it was never meant to be?

if you lose something, you are meant to learn from your mistakes and not make them again

nothing ever seems to be running smoothly or goes according to plan these days.

i want them back :(

AUD is dying. fol. hopefully this weekend will be an exception to the above.

bait

who has the bait to lure us in?

the bait that will keep us interested long enough to get hooked

if there is success, that bait must be pretty damn good ;)

if not, you're just a worm that was swallowed up. it meant nothing.

V.no comment

worst week ever has just recently past.

one of the worst days experienced today.

major sigh.

amazing.

my dear old folks can really amaze me sometimes.

maybe their rage attacks are going to be less frequent cos its just too tiring =\

or maybe...they're just waiting for it all to build up and go ka-boom.

----on a brighter note.

hair colour is to change once again.

but all back to au naturel.

hopefully a chocolate dark brown will suffice.

Q.自

it's ok to have an ego,

but it's not ok when ur ego is over the moon.

tone it down, ur not that great.

Seriously.

V.SHOTGUN

3 spots.

2 shotguns.

1 more left.

left. right. opposite.

offer ends soon!

sorry no rainchecks ;)

on another note:

opposites do not attract. end of story.

*this weekend = major excitement = one to be remembered :) GNO!

*Jackie seems to be joining helen&meng's game on...interesting

*Challenge accepted NJ? game on. (Terms and Conditions apply expires 22/05/10)

Q.压

pressure, pressurize, pressured.

ppl have always been pressured at one point in their lives.

similary, pressured someone else.

living under pressure sucks.

hence, one should not put pressure on oneself.

life's waaayy too short.

and there's enough ppl doing that shit to yu alr

time to loosen up =]

V.miss

i miss you jackie xu!

where have you been!

i feel like i haven't seen you in so long =[

it's okay though, i get to see you the whole of tomorrow =]

Q.动

动态, 移动, 动静.

in motion, to move, movement.

people always move things from one place to another

sometimes for the enjoyment

sometimes just because they can.

and sometimes, they like to ask their daughter's friends to help.

when things are moved

it means there is a change.

change is never good, unless it's from a vending machine.

you move me.

..and that's generally not a good thing.

V.glee

love glee

the songs make you smile =]

when you listen to music by itself especially because rachel's face isn't there to ruin it =x

It's like a dream, no end and no beginning.

And you wont bring me down!

I just wanna live while I'm alive

And my love for you is still unknown.

I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand.

Never knowing if there's solid ground below.

Maybe this time.

Forever united here somehow.

Are you ready to go, are you ready to go?

Every now and then I fall apart.

And truth be told, I'm lying.

Don't hold it all inside.

Q.信

我应该相信你吗?

我应该再给你一次机会吗?

我应该怎么办..?

tell me what to do,

lead me from this blindness,

show me where i'm meant to go.

please...

Q.新

new day

new experiences

new words

new clothes

new job

new ppl

new feelings

new thoughts

new.

..perhaps yu've renewed urself too..?

take these crazy thoughts from me..

bring me back to reality..

Q.盲

我想,

我知道我现在在做什么.

希望这次我的决定会是对的.

你会支持我吗..?

V.one

day one.

3 siblings.

1 house.

0 parents.

1 visit from sago and nj

1 sister corrupted by sago

micro essay finally complete and handed in :)

after writing an essay about climate change, you get hell sad seeing the black fumes leave the exhausts of the cars in front of you. maybe we should all go green and drive a toyota prius =]

V.Mother's Day

an ode to you =)

To our sweet little mummy
Sometimes it may not be clear to see,
How much you mean to us
You give us such glee

How happy we are as a family
Whenever together at karaoke
Especially when you hear the songs
Of your dear old Georgie

Though we always want more
You never seem to fail
To tell us another one of your tales
To teach us lessons from your elders before
You are one of the only people we will ever truly adore

To each of your hearts
Only you have the key
No other boy or girl
Will ever replace thee

Today is Mother’s Day
You bring the sunshine to our rain
We love you forever
Our dearest, darling Elaine

bring it on daddy ;)

---
on another note.

Probability Assignment - completed

Calc Test - completed

Java Lab - completed

Micro Essay - still in progress

ITF Group Assignment - TBA (to be attempted)

Probability Study - TBA

Java Project - TBA

study may study may

Q.故事

they broke up.

they met up a couple years later.

he asks her "how are you?"

she replies "good"

he asks her "how is he?"

she replies "good"

she asks him "how are you?"

he replies "good"

she asks him "how is she?"

he replies "she just told me she's good.."

one of my all time favourites... <3

V.rhyme

i rhymed for the first time in a long while

its nice to make a person smile :)

i should find a way to keep them all in a pile

maybe i should print them

and keep them in a book

so in a few years time

when i have a look

i'll remember these times

when we were young and free

to do pretty much whatever we please

good night and good morning

to everyone awake or asleep

for when we rise and shine

its a day for our mothers

who we get to cherish and keep =)

Happy Mother's Day <3

V.rush

is the rush worth the price i pay?

Q.你

i'm so glad i met yu..

good day,

bad evening,

great night.

yu,

are all that i need to cheer me up.

for i will forever love you.

but i will not forever let you affect my life.

eos

V. D J N

according to 'The Birth Date Book : 7th October',

in my life
3 letters.
significant people.
significant places.

who
where

i wonder...

=)

ignorance is bliss

reality is a bitch

Q.跳

你的眼神充满美丽 带走我的心跳,,

你的温柔如此靠近 带走我的心跳..

我不要带动你的心跳,,

因为我的心不会为你跳动..

04.

我最讨厌的一天..

还好今天有你,, 有你们陪我度过 ^^

long walks on the beach.. <3

although they're love, they may not necessarily be reality

reality = walk around the block w/ a good friend ^^

laptop, i hate you. eos

V. 20 MAY 2010

cannot wait for this date to pass :)

may.

worst month ever.

eos.

*sigh

6th - calc test

9th - java lab due

10th - econ essay

14th - itf assignment

18th - econ tute q2

20th - probability test

28th - java project due

june5/7/8/14 exams =(

V.procrastinating

procrastinating is my new hobby.

assignments/assessments for this week:

micro essay + java lab + calc test - probability assignment + itf group assignment

fun.fun.fun

fml

Q.又

又一次..

每个月一次.

每次同一时间回来折磨我.

i dread the coming of the nxt hour,

when the clock strikes 12,

when the hand of time, strikes my heart once again.

painful memories.

please leave me..

V.detox

wonder if it will help me with my problems :O!

it's a deal sl10 ;)

now put your hands up!

nj has found a brilliant song

all to myself by guy sebastian.

the lyrics - couldn't have said it better themselves =x

Q.等

"wait, wait for me.."

how much longer will i have to wait?

do i want to wait?

is this worth my time..?

who's gna answer my questions..?

Q.5

it's may~

here starts my sober-ness, hardcore studying-ness, and sane-ness.

goodluck!

yu are wa~ay too cute..<3

Q.GAY

Monday 7 June 2010
Start Time: 2:00 pm	Duration: 2 hours 10 mins*
Unit:	ECON1101-Microeconomics: Prices and Markets
Paper Name:
Location:	CRAW-EXAM - Crawley Examinations
Venue:	101:THR - Winthrop Hall - View Map
Saturday 12 June 2010
Start Time: 9:00 am	Duration: 3 hours 10 mins*
Unit:	ACCT2201-Introduction to Corporate Accounting
Paper Name:
Location:	CRAW-EXAM - Crawley Examinations
Venue:	131:G01 - Physical Recreation Centre - View Map
Thursday 17 June 2010
Start Time: 9:00 am	Duration: 2 hours 10 mins*
Unit:	JAPN1101-Japanese Beginners I
Paper Name:
Location:	CRAW-EXAM - Crawley Examinations
Venue:	224:G404 - Engineering Lecture Theatre 2 - View Map
Start Time: 2:00 pm	Duration: 2 hours 10 mins*
Unit:	ACCT1112-Management Accounting
Paper Name:
Location:	CRAW-EXAM - Crawley Examinations
Venue:	HUMV:GYM - Human Movement Gym

V.sighsighsigh

good luck ness.

Saturday 5 June 2010
Start Time: 9:00 am	Duration: 3 hours 10 mins*
Unit:	MATH2209-Calculus and Probability
Paper Name:
Location:	CRAW-EXAM - Crawley Examinations
Venue:	101:UC - Undercroft - View Map
Monday 7 June 2010
Start Time: 2:00 pm	Duration: 2 hours 10 mins*
Unit:	ECON1101-Microeconomics: Prices and Markets
Paper Name:
Location:	CRAW-EXAM - Crawley Examinations
Venue:	131:G01 - Physical Recreation Centre - View Map
Tuesday 8 June 2010
Start Time: 9:00 am	Duration: 2 hours 10 mins*
Unit:	FINA2221-Introduction to Finance
Paper Name:
Location:	CRAW-EXAM - Crawley Examinations
Venue:	131:G01 - Physical Recreation Centre - View Map
Monday 14 June 2010
Start Time: 2:00 pm	Duration: 2 hours 10 mins*
Unit:	CITS1200-Java Programming
Paper Name:
Location:	CRAW-EXAM - Crawley Examinations
Venue:	131:G01 - Physical Recreation Centre - View Map