Q.一

Day 1 - Your Bestfriend

the first time i met you, you asked me to touch your abs. haha.
hilarious moment. i still remember our very awkward meeting;
"CHRI--------.... ur not Chris.... =S"

the friendship bond between us became stronger, because of him.
everytime we had an argument, i called you.
everytime i was upset, you were there.
everytime i needed someone, i knew you were the one.

you are like, the most important person in my life.
my support pillar, my source of strength, my hope.

but it all came crashing down,
that night when you said those words to me.

it hurt.

i felt like i was really left with nothing.
it was worse than him leaving my life.
it was the most horrible feeling.
a world without you.
that is one world i do not wish to live in again.

i'm really glad we cleared things up.
i'm really glad you started to open up to me more.
i'm really glad we can be "us" again.

the first time i saw you cry,
my heart tore itself apart.
it hurt me so much.
i felt so helpless.
i didn't know what to do, what to say.
i didn't know how to make you feel better.
all i wanted to do was to hold you in my arms until you were ok.

all these million feelings i have for you,
all these million things i'd do for you,
all these million things i have to say to you,
so much so that even at times, i'd confuse myself as to whether you were only a bestfriend, or something more.

but that is a question i wish to have unanswered.
you know that i cherish you in an unexplained way,
and i know that i stand somewhere in your heart important enough.
and that's enough for me. =)

i love you.

in my world,
you are perfection.
and no matter how much effort it may take,
you will be my bestfriend,
forever and ever.

EKCT