safe

it's hard sometimes, even if i wanted to call you, i wouldn't.
it isn't that i couldn't but i wouldn't.
i miss having you around and your company.
but things get too complicated and messy,
it's predictable, the consequences of our actions.
it's easy to be around you and just deal. a safe place.
i miss you. but like always, i have to stay away.
why? because i need to save myself and yourself the trouble.
i'm sorry.