hearsay

hearsay is a rather annoying thing to deal with

everyone has their own interpretation 

and the information you get could be far from the truth

~~~~~xo~~~~~

when i hear things from other people,
whether truth or not,
i can shake it off,
not pay any attention to it,
pretend like it was nothing.
but when i hear you say so from your mouth,
it cuts right through my heart,
into the depths of my soul.

closure

is what is needed,
is what we have,
is still to come,
there are too many loose ends left untied
all you need is this to move on with your life

~~~~~xo~~~~~

move out of my memories,
move out of my mind.
remove your things,
remove your belongings,
so i can close the door of my heart on you,
and never open it back up again.

neverending

the cycle will never end.the effort you make is taken for granted, hurting you is the choice i make, the choices i make it's not for only me but also for the choices that you have made, the chemistry is irreplaceable that i won't deny, your desires still present and your hope never fading. 

i'm really truly sorry what you have to go through. i know it must be hard for you, but what you have is worth it. i'm glad you're happy and i hope you don't let your doubts cloud your vision. don't doubt your importance to him. don't think about how high up you are on that list. just cherish what you have together :)

unfair

you assume too much and the amount of crap you give to one over the other is unfair.
both are in the wrong, whether one is expected to act this way and is predictable doesn't justify that the other is more wrong because they 'should' know better.
you assume that that person knows and observes but really that person knows shit all. that person doesn't live life analyzing every single thing that comes their way. that person lives life as it comes and doesn't realise what happens to them until it turns into one messy mess. then that person is left in a cycle with loose ends and no closure.

time is off the essence. figure it out for yourself.

now

now is the time to know, now is the time to make a decision,

now is the time for you to discover what you want with him,

it's your choice at the end of the day

and what you choose will change things no matter what.

~~~~~xo~~~~~

it's a lot harder slacking when you have a billion things to do a day.

everything has to be done NOW.

now. now. now.

sigh,

now-me has so many problems that i cannot rely on future-me like i used to.

average. =(

V.fail fruits

apple failed and went to metros before the date clearly stated :( but it was worth it :)
metros was really good last night! barely any trance at all! yay to california girls! jess came out with me for jackie! i hope they had a good time :):) epic love to dearest jackie who brought her whole till ;)
orange went missing :( plum got caught up -.- apple was told to go save plum but then got told to f-off by strawberry.

next weekend....ronnie/zhida/sarahs :) the 20s:)

Q.喜

you really put the life back into my dull shell of nothingness... =)

CONGRATULATIONS!!!

...i'll miss you....

baggage

hopefully for my sake you're able to deal with the amount that is about to come your way :)

~~~~~xo~~~~~

pack your bags and off you go!
come back soon 'cause i'll miss you =(

O.REALISATION

wow i think that...

you have finally turned into what i said you could have turned into.
what i said in the past, has become present in the future.

amazing much? but for your sake, you should hope that that really isn't the case.

LOL funny:)

o.it's a date!

things are slowly falling into place:)
i think it's quite exciting!
change for the better? we shall see.
to keep in contact, to make things work, to make things happen
you've been booked out :)




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uni is fail. killing me. hate it. mfl i hate you. 2140 i hate you. law i like you i guess. dynamics i hate you too.
september will be such a good month :) 11th - return to metros 24th - another night out for asia cocktail
then october comes 1st - msu ball 2nd - metros 7th - nineteen 8th - twin's nineteen and noobs go ping